spacefille: (CSI)
Sorry about the rant in the previous lj entry. That was in no way aimed at my lj friends or in fact pretty much anyone I know personally. It's really sad how the Internet makes people act how they wouldn't in RL. Or maybe how they would in RL if there were no repercussions for being a dick.

Off that topic, I'm under an amazingly large amount of stress lately. There is a broken water something or other outside of the house where I rent... which is a basement suite. Not unexpectedly, there is a lot of mold that developed... somewhere, I believe most of it is in the carpet.

So I wrote a letter to my landlord, then, when she didn't reply, went rental hunting (finding a place to live in Vancouver for anything remotely resembling a reasonable price is nigh impossible.) Anyway, landlord was called for a reference, so she finally shows up at the house on Saturday to look into replacing the broken water whatever, and put down laminate to replace the carpet. Since we didn't get the place, we might have to go with what she offers. Unfortunately because the leak is outside the house and underground, it'll take a week for someone to come fix it. So frustrating.

I've been sleeping in the livingroom for a week now as the bedroom smells so bad I can't sleep in there. I've generally been stressed out about the lack of privacy, even though I made makeshift walls around the bed. I have a roommate and the livingroom = kitchen and bathroom, so I won't have privacy back until the bedroom is livable again.

To make matters worse, things smell of mold now, and I have a lot of things. Luckily most of the comic books were in boarded plastic so I think those are savable, but my old artwork from University is probably a write off.

Going through my old artwork (and a book on setting goals I found) made me sad and wonder, yet again, where the heck I'm going with my life. I wrote in the goal book (over 4 years ago) that I wanted to do something with my writing and art. Well, I've done exactly none of that... now I use writing as an escape from a monotonous job where the thing I get reprimanded for the most is my lack of (business) writing skills. I go to a psych who is wanting me to go into teaching, which I agree is the most logical choice for me, but I find teaching overwhelming and stressful. So I feel like I'm drifting in limbo, and it sucks. :( The only thing that made me feel really ALIVE and a part of something during the last two years was acting. If I could get paid to throw myself in front of people and bask in the sheer terror and endorphins that come from said sheer terror my life would be set...


Hopefully everyone else's life is going better than mine right now. XD And I'm sure I don't have a lot to complain about, I have a place to sleep at very least, and letting go of some of my stuff isn't necessarily a bad thing.

I will figure my crap out soon. *shakes fist*
spacefille: (Default)
Reading a bunch of anti-American comments in a Canadian newspaper article today made me feel disgusted.

Here's something to chew on. Nearly every single American I've ever met has been kind and courteous. In fact Idaho was so full of kind, courteous people I was in shock.

Here's another thing to chew on. Most of my closest kind, courteous American friends are ALSO conservative.

I really wish some of my fellow Canadians would get their heads out of their asses. You might not like their politics or some of the more outspoken Americans out there, but for every loud, brass, outspoken American you see on TV (which some Canadians seem to like to point to and say "Ah ha! That's what all Americans are like!") there are a million really polite, kind, courteous and welcoming people that actually AREN'T like that at all.

TL;DR, stfu anti-American Canadians.
spacefille: (piccolo)
I literally can't stop writing. It's gone from procrastination to obsession, so I might have to stop because I keep putting everything else "real life" related off.

Unhealthy, I know.

And it's not even really good writing, it's just random DBZ stuff. o_O Anyway, that was my weekend. Again. For about the fourth weekend in a row. At least I got off my duff and got groceries, yay.
spacefille: (piccolo)
I wrote a 4k short story yesterday after work. (Yes, all at once. Marathon writing, yay! *is tired*)

Anyway, it's the most meta thing ever... the short story is a fanfic of a alternate universe fanfic (so what Shades of Grey was to Twilight)... of which the main character is based on a fanparody of the character from the original tv show. (Nail from TFS's DBZ Abridged.)

*is proud*

Basically if you slapped regular names on my short story it is so far removed from the original source material that even if you tried there is no way you could make the association. *moar proud*

Also the friend who I wrote it for - the person who wrote the AU - said she really liked it! *even moar proud* :)

Now, my biggest issue is my friend will not post said AU fanfic until she's made a certain amount of progress into the fanfic. *slaps forehead* So there is 30k+ of marvelous fanfic just sitting there. I should start a petition going or something, even though I'd be the only signature on it as I'm the only one who has read it.

Hopefully she won't get mad at me for posting that. :)

I'm also well on my way towards my 1 million words. You know, that challenge where if you write a million words you've become a good writer. I believe this is more an issue of practice, but doesn't necessarily mean someone is a good writer... but I do feel I've improved over the years (though grammar and spelling are still my weaknesses). I'd like to hit 1 mil. I know some friends who have.

All together I'm pushing about 750k. 475k on, 3 original Nanowrimo spews of 50k each (they are terrible), a bunch of fanfiction that either is to old to post or it got booted off of back in the day.

As a point of interest, if Stephen King wrote 2000 words a day for 12 years he'd be sitting at about 8.76 million words. Sounds about right actually, given how many books that man has published. Also as a point of interest, one of my favorite young adult writers, Gordon Korman, hit the ground running by publishing the novel he wrote in grade 7 as a class project... at the tender age of 12.

Goal for the next 250k words - FINISH SOMETHING. Or better yet, finish everything.
spacefille: (piccolo)
I'm a bit behind... last week there was an announcement that there is a new Dragonball Z animated movie planed for March 2013.

This is special because it will be set between the end of the Majin Buu saga and the "10 Years Later" last chapter in the manga. Also apparently Akira Toriyama is directly involved with this one, including the writing.


- Bulma is so relieved that Vegeta is still alive again that they rekindle their relationship (translated: Bulma jumps him) which ultimately results in Bra.

- Chichi gets her husband back, but nobody cares. She'll rant at Goku about something and Goku will stare at her with utter incomprehension and/or put his hand behind his head and laugh.

- 18, Krillin and Marron move out of the Master Roshi's house into their own place with the craploads of money 18 won from Mr. Satan.

- Gohan graduates from High School and enrolls in University. He gets engaged to Videl and they end up trying to have sex, which turns into the most awkward thing ever, because Gohan is the most awkward thing ever.

- Goten and Trunks accidentally blow up a school. Or the city. Either or.

- Piccolo will meditate and get irritated when someone interrupts him.


- Some gigantic and evil threat travels through time/from the other side of the universe/from the other world and it is the STRONGEST FIGHTER EVAR.

- Earth's forces will gather together to fight this new bad guy, EVERYONE will have a cameo.

- Vegeta will fight the bad guy and get his butt kicked. Goku will scream "VEGETA!" at least once.

- Goku will fight and get his butt kicked.

- Goten and Trunks will have to fuse and will end up ultimately defeating whatever it is.

- At least one new EXTREMELY annoying new character will be introduced, possibly Vegeta's uncle's cousin twice removed.

- The Earth will be in danger of exploding at least once.

- They'll have to use the Dragonballs to wish for something.

- There will be no romance whatsoever.

- There will be at least one flashback to the past and/or an old nemesis will come back to life, only to get their butt kicked too.

- Piccolo will meditate and get irritated when someone interrupts him.


So, yeah, I guess I'm looking forwards to it...
spacefille: (Majin Vegeta Grin)
So... I haven't been posting this here because... well, pretty much because I'm lazy and had formatting fic into lj posts sucks but! I'm still writing "Thursday Morning". Chapters 1-8 can be found on here:

(Thursday Morning is the "Gohan gets turned into a girl and bad things happen to him", and there is Piccolo/Gohan and Vegeta/Gohan and so on. It'll eventually be a Piccolo/Gohan relationship fic... though getting there is proving... interesting. Seriously though, ever try to write a relationship fic between a human teenager and a giant asexual grouchy alien?)

It is now the third longest fanfic I've ever written. But that isn't saying much. If it ever gets deleted for whatever reason I guess I'll have to go back to posting it here. XD I might actually finish this one too. The longest fanfic I ever wrote was 99k, and I finished it so... hey! There is always a chance. <3

... I also tried to read 50 Shades of Grey over the weekend... it didn't last long. It's one baaadddlyyyy written piece of poo. Happily it makes me feel better about my chances of becoming good enough to be published one day! (I think 50 Shades of Grey did that for a lot of people.)


Jun. 11th, 2012 07:00 pm
spacefille: (piccolo)
I made a Tumblr a year ago but never used it. Yesterday I decided thanks to the overwhelmingly large amount of Dragonball Z yaoi on tumblr I'd try to use my tumblr for fandom stuff.

I have no idea how to use it properly and I don't know if I'm supposed to be using tumblr as a blog. I feel like I've committed a faux pas by posting a fiction writing update. o_O So if that's bad, I'll just keep it to arting and actual fiction writing posts.

Either way, it's here:

Also I'll probably use it for a month or so and then never update it, just like my lj. XD
spacefille: (piccolo)
I suppose it's time for my monthly update. I just checked my friends list for the first time in ages and the front page was full of posts from people I've known well for years. It made my heart glow with the happiness of familiarity and old memories. Also makes me want to update this thing more often... Facebook doesn't cut it and Tumblr isn't social.

I'm on my first day back a very bad week long family vacation. The worst of it was a car accident where I might owe 3.7k of damages on another vehicle from where I hit them with a rental, which I most likely will have to cover due to lack of insurance (got the damage waiver on the actual rental, so at least that was covered). We'll see what happens with that. It was also good to spend time with family, and see my nephews and see my ailing grandpa before he passes away.

I read the Hunger Games on my flight to Alberta, and couldn't put it down. When visiting my sister on Thursday we went to see the Hunger Games movie and the book was decidedly better. I started reading Battle Royale (the manga) Friday morning and finished it Saturday morning, between visiting my brother's family. I read Battle Royale because multiple persons online were complaining that the Hunger Games is a rip off. I don't see it, though I agree the basic premise is the same, the concept has been in science fiction since before Battle Royale was made. I've also seen a Doctor Who episode with the same sort of premise.

Today I watched the Battle Royale movie and I still don't see it being a rip off. The manga was better, though my favorite character Mimura lasted a lot longer in the movie than the manga.

I told my roommate at the end of the movie that everyone died and he replied with "even the survivors?" XD

I finally managed to figure out most of the 6th chapter of my fanfic Thursday Morning on the flight back to Vancouver. With any luck will have it up soon. Yay.

I'm eagerly awaiting the next episode of TFS's DBZ Abridged because we'll FINALLY get to see Goku go Super Saiyan (how are they going to do it?? *bites nails in eager anticipation*)

I still have 10 hours of practicum to go. It kind of sucks to get through an entire course (teaching English as a second language) and then realize I don't like teaching all that much, (I'm better at taking orders and having structure when I work... so I need to find out what careers I can do that have structure yet are diverse enough to keep my interest. I wish customer service paid better because I'm really good at that...) Anyway I keep telling myself that at least I didn't discover I don't like teaching... while over seas in a different country. Thank goodness for that. I will sweat my way through the rest of my practicum and get my certificate... and then go on to look into other career options. :P Any suggestions?
spacefille: (Default)
Tomorrow I'm going downhill skiing for the first time in 16 years! Yes, I know it's a bit sad when that's the highlight of my spring but whatever. XD

I've only been skiing 5 or 6 times before in my life... all when I was 13/14. The first three or four were in Jr. High School in grade 7 or 8. It was part of "Life and Leisure week", the week before Christmas Break when all students selected something special to do from a list of activities. (My three different choices over the years were Film Making, Downhill Skiing and Modelling.) Anyway, I went skiing two other times, once to Winter Green at night, and another to Fortress Mountain, both in my mid-teens. The Winter Green memory is especially nice because I looked up and saw the Northern Lights for the first (and last) time.

I've been wanting to try skiing again for two and a half years but, again, the cost is prohibitive. I planned ahead for this, and I'm catching a ride to Whistler with my co-worker Scott to save on travel expenses and booked my equipment rental ahead so that I could get a discount. My lift ticket came from Craigslist lol.

As a note, wth happened to skis in the last 16 years, they look way different!

Oh yes, and I'm single again. I broke up with my boyfriend last Saturday. Ever since I took this TESOL class I haven't had time for a boyfriend, had to drop the acting, and retreated back into myself. On the plus side I've been getting a lot of writing done and even reopened a couple old fics. On the not plus side... I broke someone's heart.

Also I need to be careful not to get depressed again. -_- Because I know the danger now of becoming reclusive again. Severing ties with my boyfriend does not help me any.
spacefille: (gohan)
15 years old me - Running around pretending to be a Sailor Scout
30 years old me - Still watching Dragonball Z

If I went back in time and mentioned this to my 15 year old self I would have stared at myself like I had two heads, asked "How the heck did THAT happen?" and given myself the worlds most pitying look EVAR.

The continued conversation would have gone something like this:

30 year old me "It's really slashable!"
15 year old me "It's so UGLY."
30 year old me "but... yummy slash."
15 year old me "... UGLY."
30 year old me "You think Ninja Turtles are sexy for crying out loud."
15 year old me "... okay you might have a point there."
15 year old me "yes'm o_O" *and still doesn't do it because she is le lazy*
spacefille: (gohan)
Thursday Morning: Part 2

Summary: A wish for more Saiyans goes awry and Gohan wakes up to find he is no longer a he. Piccolo is charged with protecting his former student from certain interested parties who would be more than happy to help her carry on the Saiyan race. All Gohan wants is his body back. What horrors will Gohan end up going through before he can get back to normal?

Pairings (main): Piccolo/Gohan, Vegeta/Gohan

Other pairings: Vegeta/Bulma (established relationship). Might have Goku/Vegeta. Tiny bit of very one-sided Goku/Gohan.

Warning: HET. Hints of non-con, but not really. Angst. M/M later, though that really isn't a warning.

Part 1

Part 2:The Demon Inside )
spacefille: (Majin Vegeta Grin)
Sunday afternoon... end up on damn tumblr for hours.

SKY WORLD By KABU - A really great Goku/Vegeta doujinshi with lots of violence:

Vegeta music videos:

Vegeta's Sexy and He knows It
(I've watched it at least 15 times now XD... it's damn sexy)


Vegeta Will Always Love You(Humor)

The Mute

Mar. 28th, 2012 05:35 pm
spacefille: (Majin Vegeta Grin)
Title: The Mute
Author: Spacefille
Notes: Just a quick, dark mood piece/Character Study. Vegeta was not a virgin before coming to Earth. Contains het. rape and death - not very detailed - but possibly triggering/uncomfortable making.

Read fic here )
spacefille: (piccolo)
So this is literally my first DBZ fanfic posting in 8 years. XD Yay for getting back into old fandoms again!

Summary: A wish for more Saiyans goes awry and Gohan wakes up to find he is no longer a he. Piccolo is charged with protecting his former student from certain interested parties who would be more than happy to help her carry on the Saiyan race. All Gohan wants is his body back. What horrors will Gohan end up going through before he can get back to normal?

Author's Note: Switches to female pronouns pretty much right away despite the fact that Gohan is still intellectually himself and male, mostly to not cause confusion later on. Also might have pronoun errors throughout. I tried to catch them all.

Pairings (main): Piccolo/Gohan, Vegeta/Gohan

Other pairings: Vegeta/Bulma (established relationship). Mild Goku/Vegeta. Tiny bit of very one-sided Goku/Gohan.

Warning: HET. Hints of non-con, but not really. Angst. M/M later, though that really isn't a warning.

Part 1:In Distress )
spacefille: (Vegeta)
I can't believe my class is finally done. Finished my exam yesterday, and I'm fairly sure I passed!

If I pass practicum next month, I'll have a TESOL certificate and qualified to teach English as a second language to... well pretty much anyone. If I can get a job in town that'd be great, because I'm not so much into going over seas at my age. I'm 31 and I just feel too... settled to uproot for a year. By the time I get back, depending on when I go, I'd be 33 or 34... etc. Also I have cats. I AM however considering possibly in the future looking into becoming a high school teacher. Dun dun dun. But that'd mean two more years of school. My spinster great aunts were teachers, so I'd be following in a fine family tradition. Including the spinster bit. ;)

So ANYWAY~ I have a big question for the whole ten of you that still use LJ... I used to be a DBZ fan and wrote yaoi/drew pictures 10 years ago. (Literally, my first DBZ fanfic was posted in March of 2002.) I just got back into the fandom 10 YEARS LATER... and no one is around anymore. :( Seriously. Most everyone stopped posting years ago. Also, because I suck and went and got super busy almost all of my TMNT friends are offline too (yes, time does kill fandoms, it's true.)

So, I was wondering if anyone knew any place online where the DBZ fandom is still alive and well... or alternatively, want to hit me up on AIM? :3 My username is Spacefille, just like my username... elsewhere/everywhere. *is a whore*

While procrastinating on my homework for above said class, I've been writing and reading crap tons of Vegeta/Gohan, I guess it's my old standard. <3 I have a tendency towards Piccolo/Gohan too, but its harder for me to do as they don't have dicks, (as the DBZ Abridged series was so kind to point out. XD) Of course I happily read and write almost anything, including the good old Goku/Vegeta pairing (they're like Raph/Leo srsly) but at this point so many fics have been written with them it gets a bit redundant. (Aw, Goku pretty much forced Vegeta against his will again and he ended up really enjoying it anyway? How sweet! ... no seriously I love that.) But yes, there you go. XD I need my fix!
spacefille: (Default)
I was in the washroom just now and an old song I used to listen to called "Winds of Change" by Scorpions came on the radio. It took me back to me taking the C-Train home from work (in Calgary) a couple days or weeks after 9/11... and the memory was so vivid that I briefly thought maybe it'd be nice to be back there, 20 yrs old again... incidentally to a moment in time where I was thinking it'd be nice to go back (before September 11th...) (So it was a double time memory!!! :D )

And this *overwhelming* sense of being trapped came over me. It happens every time I think about going back and changing the past and living any part of my life over. I never EVER want to go back... the thought of having to redo and repeat life is just soooo draining. If I redid life at that time I'd have changed my entire future because the thought of, say, doing University again is bloody tedious. I'd never meet most of my friends. I'd never have that sense of security and kinsman ship. I'd never have gotten drunk for the first time... but I might have just drowned myself in the river just from sheer desperation of getting out of having to repeat what I've already done.

I'd have to listen to "In the End" by Linkin Park on the radio on constant repeat for that entire summer it was a huge hit. URGH.

So my question is, do you find the thought of repeating any part of life something that gives you a sense of repulsion?

Yay #2!

Jul. 14th, 2011 10:50 pm
spacefille: (draco)
Deathly Hallows Malfoy screencaps!! Includes bad!touch Voldemort and Draco being heroic.

Malfoy Deathly Hallows part 2 screencaps. Obviously this will contain spoilers. )


Jul. 9th, 2011 01:19 am
spacefille: (draco)
I haven't seen Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Pt. 2 yet because I don't live in London. However I was able to guestimate a lovely Draco scene using official photos and B-roll footage... :)

Do not click if you don't want spoilers, this scene wasn't in the books. Well, sort of. )
spacefille: (Default)
Posting for the first time in months in order to squee over Draco! XD


Okay I am done now. ^^ Can't wait until the 15th omg.

(Also .gif of Harry and Draco riding the broom together. Yes the scene will exist in the movie. I can die happy. :3 : )
spacefille: (Default)
Yes I'm still alive. It was a long day between acting class, dropping by free comic book day and getting more drawings done for James. Broke it up briefly by watching a couple episodes of the new My Little Pony series... and I hate to say it but it was quite enjoyable. The first two episodes anyway. I was surprised. Very Sailor Moon-ish though. XD

In other news I got a part in the local Renaissance festival, playing a lady of the court. It's theater in the round. It's a volunteer job, but it's great experience. Rehearsal is tomorrow. I'm excited... I have headshots done, and a resume, now all I need is to get a couple monologues done so I can get a demo reel going.

That will have to wait a bit though, this week is going to be insane between working full time, memorizing lines from two different scripts, and redoing a bunch of art for James. I'm okay with it though, the insanity is something I have to get used to if I want to be an actress. ;)

Oh yes and I crashed my car. I was stupid and because I was looking behind me I wasn't paying attention to where my front end was swinging while backing out of a parking lot at Sears. Hit the front fender against those cement posts... crushed the fender inwards and knocked the front bumper partly off. I was going all of 2 km an hour so I was shocked at the damage. I'll never ever not pay attention again. My car is grounded for now (tire is rubbing against the damaged bits) and on Monday I get to take the fender off and pound it back into place (and tie up the bumper) because I don't have the money to replace or repair it. My car is in terrible shape bodywise from all the damage I've caused it by learning how to drive in it and two accidents, I'd never be able to sell it. But it drives well and thats the important thing, right?

Well that's about it for me. How is everyone else?
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