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Hey everyone, I'm still alive. I've pretty much completely moved to tumblr, where I have been delighting in being a Homestuck fan. I'll still use this lj from time to time I think... it is the last place left I can make personal posts and hide them from my family. Tumblr I don't know the people there enough to post "unattractive angst".
Anyway, for anyone who wants to keep tabs on me, my tumblr is: http://spacefille.tumblr.com/
My skype is: Spacefille
My facebook has my entire family on it and has to be fandom free as much as possible. If you're cool with that give me a note (and if I know you enough) I'll give you my real name and URL.
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A short summary of the last month and a half... nothing really. Honestly, I'm just using Homestuck to escape my personal life right now. Which isn't healthy, I know. :(
Even so Homestuck was good in one way, I made friends in real life and am learning how to actually be around people. I think getting out of the house is positive for me.
Anyway, yeah. Hit me up and please feel free to add me on skype or whatever.
Anyway, for anyone who wants to keep tabs on me, my tumblr is: http://spacefille.tumblr.com/
My skype is: Spacefille
My facebook has my entire family on it and has to be fandom free as much as possible. If you're cool with that give me a note (and if I know you enough) I'll give you my real name and URL.
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A short summary of the last month and a half... nothing really. Honestly, I'm just using Homestuck to escape my personal life right now. Which isn't healthy, I know. :(
Even so Homestuck was good in one way, I made friends in real life and am learning how to actually be around people. I think getting out of the house is positive for me.
Anyway, yeah. Hit me up and please feel free to add me on skype or whatever.
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*Volunteers at a gaming convention for the weekend where the is about ten guys for every girl and is surrounded by interested men. Finds pretty much the only single girl at the convention. Kisses said girl*
BOOYAH.
Sometimes my life is awesome.
(As a note it was because someone male suggested it, but I gotta say, girls are winning for best kissers in my books.)
Said girl is a fellow actress and straight. But I'd be lying if I didn't say I'd totally be up for more relatively platonic kissing and cuddling with girls. XD; I crave it like whoa.
BOOYAH.
Sometimes my life is awesome.
(As a note it was because someone male suggested it, but I gotta say, girls are winning for best kissers in my books.)
Said girl is a fellow actress and straight. But I'd be lying if I didn't say I'd totally be up for more relatively platonic kissing and cuddling with girls. XD; I crave it like whoa.
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Well, I’m volunteering at the Gaming Expo tomorrow and I’m a bit scared because of the guys (yes, plural) who like me. I have huge intimacy issues when it comes to men, even though I’m totally okay with and crave platonic love from people, serious non-platonic stuff scares me. XD I don’t know if it is because I was raised ultra-conservative or because fell in love hard once and that didn’t work out and dating is always fairly horrible so I’m scared off forever but… there you go.
What I should do is be straight and say I’m not interested in dating right now. But I tried that and it didn’t work. :(
So now I’m reading articles on the friend-zone in attempts to figure out how men’s brains work and I’m still no closer to figuring out what to do. Besides growing a couple of balls myself. I dunno.
D: I feel kind of dumb because I’m old and I should have this crap figured out by now. My roommate said I should avoid places like conventions where guys are and that’s not going to happen because I love hanging out with people like myself.
I end up hanging out around this one particular guy because he shows no interest in me whatsoever. Strangely enough his lack of interest makes me like him a little bit more than the interested folk. Which is messed up I know. -_-
What I should do is be straight and say I’m not interested in dating right now. But I tried that and it didn’t work. :(
So now I’m reading articles on the friend-zone in attempts to figure out how men’s brains work and I’m still no closer to figuring out what to do. Besides growing a couple of balls myself. I dunno.
D: I feel kind of dumb because I’m old and I should have this crap figured out by now. My roommate said I should avoid places like conventions where guys are and that’s not going to happen because I love hanging out with people like myself.
I end up hanging out around this one particular guy because he shows no interest in me whatsoever. Strangely enough his lack of interest makes me like him a little bit more than the interested folk. Which is messed up I know. -_-
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I'm fairly sure work is trying to kill me again. I even have dreams of my coworker telling me to get out while I still can because my boss is trying to kill me. Today I went home nauseous and sick because I couldn't hack it. My trainee/future replacement was completely understanding. I adore her, and want her to do well and take over the job.
SO. BAD. PLEASE TAKE MY JOB.
It pisses me off that I'm forced to this. I made it a whole week and a half. The constant pressure to get the job done and train new girl at the same time is impossible to bare in the long run.
The doctor gave me a note saying that I should be on leave effective yesterday (stress leave) and while I'm not going to use it, it's highly tempting. It's an out a least, and if I continue to deteriorate I might have to use it. If I wait until they let me go I might be too worn out and tired to launch into job hunting right away and it might be a long struggle to get back on my feet again.
It's a real sucky situation to be in.
Anyway, I think Nano is off this year. I was fairly sure it was off before November even began but this kind of put a nail in the coffin. I write 30k a month anyway, on average, and 10-15k on my "off" months. I know how to write, I just need to finish. And right now with all the stress at work I just can't pull off Nano.
In happier news I went to the convention on Saturday dressed up as Vriska and loved every moment of it. Homestuck fans are awesome. I posted about it here:
Anime Evolution - Homestuck photos
That is all.
SO. BAD. PLEASE TAKE MY JOB.
It pisses me off that I'm forced to this. I made it a whole week and a half. The constant pressure to get the job done and train new girl at the same time is impossible to bare in the long run.
The doctor gave me a note saying that I should be on leave effective yesterday (stress leave) and while I'm not going to use it, it's highly tempting. It's an out a least, and if I continue to deteriorate I might have to use it. If I wait until they let me go I might be too worn out and tired to launch into job hunting right away and it might be a long struggle to get back on my feet again.
It's a real sucky situation to be in.
Anyway, I think Nano is off this year. I was fairly sure it was off before November even began but this kind of put a nail in the coffin. I write 30k a month anyway, on average, and 10-15k on my "off" months. I know how to write, I just need to finish. And right now with all the stress at work I just can't pull off Nano.
In happier news I went to the convention on Saturday dressed up as Vriska and loved every moment of it. Homestuck fans are awesome. I posted about it here:
Anime Evolution - Homestuck photos
That is all.
Second Person Narrative
Did you know that this week I wrote 3k words of a fanfic in second person narrative? And that I posted it and thought absolutely nothing of it?
Absolutely nothing.
This is what the Homestuck fandom does to you. You don't feel strange at all writing in a style that used to make you recoil whenever you encountered it in fanfiction before reading Homestuck.
And that you've NEVER WRITTEN IN IT BEFORE. Except maybe when you were 12 and thought briefly that writing a Choose Your Own Adventure book would be really awesome. (See what I did there?)
Now second person is just like reading third person for me, as long as I know what character the fic is about I'm perfectly happy to read along like I'm vicariously living though their horrible life experiences.
... yup. Thank you Homestuck. You win a cookie. Or something. "You stumble through the kitchen and pick up a cookie and stuff it in your mouth, savoring the delightful crumbly goodness. Is that even a thing?" There.
Absolutely nothing.
This is what the Homestuck fandom does to you. You don't feel strange at all writing in a style that used to make you recoil whenever you encountered it in fanfiction before reading Homestuck.
And that you've NEVER WRITTEN IN IT BEFORE. Except maybe when you were 12 and thought briefly that writing a Choose Your Own Adventure book would be really awesome. (See what I did there?)
Now second person is just like reading third person for me, as long as I know what character the fic is about I'm perfectly happy to read along like I'm vicariously living though their horrible life experiences.
... yup. Thank you Homestuck. You win a cookie. Or something. "You stumble through the kitchen and pick up a cookie and stuff it in your mouth, savoring the delightful crumbly goodness. Is that even a thing?" There.
Corporate Nightmare continues...
So today I went to work today to the corporate nightmare dressed up as Vriska from Homestuck.
It was fun, but not as fun as expected. I had a meeting with the VP of the Company, who walked by me at lunch and gave me a friendly greeting arm squeeze (not hard at all) and said I looked great. So I was confused as to why she was being nice to me.
I think all of the antagonism towards me is purely my boss. Point in case, VP of the Company gave me a desperately urgent ASAP task to do, which over rode my boss' orders to train my replacement *coughs* I mean fellow coworker. So I tell my boss this and she's like *glare* you can have her work on it and train her that way. I was like "... I really need to get this done now."
Finally got to do it without having to fumble through training.
My boss is already speaking like I'm gone... apparently my roommate (did I mention I got my roommate a job at the company?) is now going to be in charge of operations and my replacement will be HIS backfill. It's like a double slap in the face. And tomorrow I train new girl moar while being watched by new boss in training. Fuck.
The nice side of it all is the new girl is genuinely nice and smart and has caught on really fast and I like her. Training a new person to replace yourself is not that difficult if you genuinely like most people and genuinely want to help most people. I've told her when she's done a good job and encouraged her. I've kept my mouth shut about the entire "you know that you're replacing me" thing, because no new employee should have to carry that. She's good. I wish her all the best.
I want to kick my current boss in her non-existent balls. She is a terrible person.
Oh yeah, and they fired the new HR for unknown reasons today as well. So no safty net there. *sighs*
It was fun, but not as fun as expected. I had a meeting with the VP of the Company, who walked by me at lunch and gave me a friendly greeting arm squeeze (not hard at all) and said I looked great. So I was confused as to why she was being nice to me.
I think all of the antagonism towards me is purely my boss. Point in case, VP of the Company gave me a desperately urgent ASAP task to do, which over rode my boss' orders to train my replacement *coughs* I mean fellow coworker. So I tell my boss this and she's like *glare* you can have her work on it and train her that way. I was like "... I really need to get this done now."
Finally got to do it without having to fumble through training.
My boss is already speaking like I'm gone... apparently my roommate (did I mention I got my roommate a job at the company?) is now going to be in charge of operations and my replacement will be HIS backfill. It's like a double slap in the face. And tomorrow I train new girl moar while being watched by new boss in training. Fuck.
The nice side of it all is the new girl is genuinely nice and smart and has caught on really fast and I like her. Training a new person to replace yourself is not that difficult if you genuinely like most people and genuinely want to help most people. I've told her when she's done a good job and encouraged her. I've kept my mouth shut about the entire "you know that you're replacing me" thing, because no new employee should have to carry that. She's good. I wish her all the best.
I want to kick my current boss in her non-existent balls. She is a terrible person.
Oh yeah, and they fired the new HR for unknown reasons today as well. So no safty net there. *sighs*
Eat me
Today at work was day one of being replaced. The new girl seems quiet, and I can't quite get a read on her. She'll probably hate the job.
I know for sure I'm being replaced though because new girl told me that when they were interviewing her they said a position was opening up soon and if she'd be interested. :P
The only thing that hurt today was when my boss told new girl (names left out for confidentiality haha) that "this was her task list" and these are all her new tasks.
Though are my tasks, I wrote that damn task list... argh. But I guess it isn't mine any longer.
Frankly my boss is an idiot for getting rid of me when she's going on maternity leave, leaving new replacement boss without much back-up but whatever. Scott's leaving and we just hired a new disputes guy too.
Also because I know I'm getting canned I pretty much don't care what I say anymore (within reason) and they were discussing the pumpkin carving the new people will have to do tomorrow. All of the unfortunate recruits (including new boss guy) were expounding on their lack of pumpkin carving skillz so I found a picture of the gold star with "you tried" written in it and e-mailed it to the entire department with the words "for tomorrow" written in the subject line.
It was hilarious and my boss made that disapproving uncomfortable "yes, well" comment and I didn't give a fuck because it made almost everyone else laugh. *She* was the one who thought it was hilarious to be like "well if you don't do well carving the pumpkin I guess we'll just have to fire you, haha" and NO ONE LAUGHED.
*smirks*
Yeah there are benefits to not giving a fuck.
I'm a jerk.
I know for sure I'm being replaced though because new girl told me that when they were interviewing her they said a position was opening up soon and if she'd be interested. :P
The only thing that hurt today was when my boss told new girl (names left out for confidentiality haha) that "this was her task list" and these are all her new tasks.
Though are my tasks, I wrote that damn task list... argh. But I guess it isn't mine any longer.
Frankly my boss is an idiot for getting rid of me when she's going on maternity leave, leaving new replacement boss without much back-up but whatever. Scott's leaving and we just hired a new disputes guy too.
Also because I know I'm getting canned I pretty much don't care what I say anymore (within reason) and they were discussing the pumpkin carving the new people will have to do tomorrow. All of the unfortunate recruits (including new boss guy) were expounding on their lack of pumpkin carving skillz so I found a picture of the gold star with "you tried" written in it and e-mailed it to the entire department with the words "for tomorrow" written in the subject line.
It was hilarious and my boss made that disapproving uncomfortable "yes, well" comment and I didn't give a fuck because it made almost everyone else laugh. *She* was the one who thought it was hilarious to be like "well if you don't do well carving the pumpkin I guess we'll just have to fire you, haha" and NO ONE LAUGHED.
*smirks*
Yeah there are benefits to not giving a fuck.
I'm a jerk.
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Today at work:
We're hiring someone to do the same job as yours. You're expected to train them, do a good job of it, keep on top of your regular work as well as book biweekly meetings with me to discuss how you feel you've improved over all in all the things we expect you to do.
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We're hiring someone to do the same job as yours. You're expected to train them, do a good job of it, keep on top of your regular work as well as book biweekly meetings with me to discuss how you feel you've improved over all in all the things we expect you to do.
....
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I'm considering moving all of my fanfiction (except for the really old pre-2001 stuff) to archiveofourown.org based purely on the fact that I'm tired of having all my stuff scattered across the Internet. Turtlecest holds most of my embarrassing tmnt fic that isn't posted elsewhere (which isn't as embarrassing in light of the fact that ao3 has a well used watersports tag), adultfanfiction.net has a crappy interface and living in the fear that fanfiction.net will delete me due to content is annoying.
Thoughts?
Thoughts?
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Make up test #2 - Dream bubble Vriska. The blue is a bit too bright, but there you go. My grey facepaint and wig have not arrived in the mail yet, so all you get is the blue and the creepy. :)
I'm still alive
Just thought I'd update to say things. I went camping on the weekend, but only managed to stay out there one night. I flirted with a boy, but felt nothing when he kissed me. :( Ah well. I also when canoeing and hiking. It was far less exciting than it sounds.
I found out the reason why I was so exhausted last week is because I had a cold coming on, which camping managed to kick it into head-squeezy uuuuughhhh territory, so I've been suffering through that for the last three days.
... Also I'm nearing the end of Act 5:2 of Homestuck. I think I have less than 1500 pages to go.
I'm going to be Terezi for halloween. I have bought materials to make it happen.
That's pretty much it. I'll make fanfic recommendations when I stop reading this stupidly long comic that never ends and keeps on making me play mini-games and giving me Morse code and changing scenes when I've just hit a REALLY SUSPENSEFUL PART.
... and drag myself back into the land of the living. *waves warily at everyone*
I found out the reason why I was so exhausted last week is because I had a cold coming on, which camping managed to kick it into head-squeezy uuuuughhhh territory, so I've been suffering through that for the last three days.
... Also I'm nearing the end of Act 5:2 of Homestuck. I think I have less than 1500 pages to go.
I'm going to be Terezi for halloween. I have bought materials to make it happen.
That's pretty much it. I'll make fanfic recommendations when I stop reading this stupidly long comic that never ends and keeps on making me play mini-games and giving me Morse code and changing scenes when I've just hit a REALLY SUSPENSEFUL PART.
... and drag myself back into the land of the living. *waves warily at everyone*
Make Homestuck stoooooppp
I can't stop reading this comic!
Also: http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/
Also: http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/
Homestuck
There were hordes of people dressed up as astrological signs with grey skin and horns at the con last weekend, all from a webcomic called "Homestuck." (MS Paint Adventures.)
So I've been trying to read it. I'm about 300 pages in and I'm still "..." about what, exactly, it is and what's going on. Now I know why people at the con said "it's really good!" but for the life of them could not offer any sort of explanation.
I did enjoy the Sims parody that Sburb is.
I also have a feeling the end of the world will factor in here at some point. Also great use of flash or gifs or whatever the author uses to make his pictures move.
http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=002131
He must turn out a page or two a day, this is an insane amount of work. Perhaps whoever made it does not have a job, or makes a lot of money off of his comics to not need to do anything but work on his comics. EDIT: Looked it up - he does comic this pretty much every waking moment.
EDIT #2: Got to the end of Act 1. End of world apparently happened. Sort of. I still have no idea what is going on, but at least it has snagged my interest. :)
So I've been trying to read it. I'm about 300 pages in and I'm still "..." about what, exactly, it is and what's going on. Now I know why people at the con said "it's really good!" but for the life of them could not offer any sort of explanation.
I did enjoy the Sims parody that Sburb is.
I also have a feeling the end of the world will factor in here at some point. Also great use of flash or gifs or whatever the author uses to make his pictures move.
http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=002131
He must turn out a page or two a day, this is an insane amount of work. Perhaps whoever made it does not have a job, or makes a lot of money off of his comics to not need to do anything but work on his comics. EDIT: Looked it up - he does comic this pretty much every waking moment.
EDIT #2: Got to the end of Act 1. End of world apparently happened. Sort of. I still have no idea what is going on, but at least it has snagged my interest. :)
LONG WEEKEND!!
While my boss is off getting hitched this weekend I'm going to enjoy the utter amazingness of being able to write all weekend long! WHOHO!
... just as soon as I stop watching all the youtube videos and reading all the news articles... o_o
EDIT: Aaaannd now I'm watching South Park. Man I haven't seen this in years. XD I can't believe they're in their 16th season, I remember watching season one in High School...
... I'm officially old. -_-
... just as soon as I stop watching all the youtube videos and reading all the news articles... o_o
EDIT: Aaaannd now I'm watching South Park. Man I haven't seen this in years. XD I can't believe they're in their 16th season, I remember watching season one in High School...
... I'm officially old. -_-
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Proposed 2012 Nanowrimo idea – 50K of Endings!
So I’ve done Nanowrimo 6 years in a row now, 4(5?) which I completed. It always comes to the same thing, I end up 50 thousand words of STUFF. This stuff usually ends up being one step away from crap with plotholes the size of the small planets, and they end up in far reaches of my computer on December 2nd, never to be touched again.
WELL NOT ANYMORE.
What has Nanowrimo taught me? I can write 50k of words in a month. That’s great! I can also finish really crappy novels. Even better! But where is the CHALLENGE in that? I already know I can do it. *yawn* Just the thought of producing yet another crappy book makes me sad.
So! Lets spice it up a bit! This year I want to do Nanowrimo a little different. Instead of writing a novel, I want to borrow the extremely supportive environment of Nano’s enforced plow towards 50k of writing to complete endings. I have at least 10 fanfics and two original novels that are not done, and all are sitting somewhere between rising action and denouement.
I’m going to prepare a list of fanfics that are sitting on the “I NEED AN ENDING PLS” pile and post it, and I’ll encourage all of you to tell me which ones you’d like to see ended. The endings might be crappy, mind, (very crappy and possibly OOC) but I’ll spend my 50k on working on the endings. THIS IS THE PLAN.
I know the TMNT fandom has about 10 fics in need of an ending. Seeing as the new TMNT cartoon is coming out on September 29th, I see a likelihood of these being worked on. *nods*
So yes, let me know which ones you’d like me to work on, and/or hate me the most for dropping and/or have already disowned me because I never finished. O_o
WELL NOT ANYMORE.
What has Nanowrimo taught me? I can write 50k of words in a month. That’s great! I can also finish really crappy novels. Even better! But where is the CHALLENGE in that? I already know I can do it. *yawn* Just the thought of producing yet another crappy book makes me sad.
So! Lets spice it up a bit! This year I want to do Nanowrimo a little different. Instead of writing a novel, I want to borrow the extremely supportive environment of Nano’s enforced plow towards 50k of writing to complete endings. I have at least 10 fanfics and two original novels that are not done, and all are sitting somewhere between rising action and denouement.
I’m going to prepare a list of fanfics that are sitting on the “I NEED AN ENDING PLS” pile and post it, and I’ll encourage all of you to tell me which ones you’d like to see ended. The endings might be crappy, mind, (very crappy and possibly OOC) but I’ll spend my 50k on working on the endings. THIS IS THE PLAN.
I know the TMNT fandom has about 10 fics in need of an ending. Seeing as the new TMNT cartoon is coming out on September 29th, I see a likelihood of these being worked on. *nods*
So yes, let me know which ones you’d like me to work on, and/or hate me the most for dropping and/or have already disowned me because I never finished. O_o
Not gonna lie, still excited
Robert Paulsen as Donatello in 2012 (20 seconds in):
And as Raphael in the 1980s:
I mean COME ON, if you're gonna voice the same cartoon but a different character, at least change the voice a bit more. But I guess I should just be happy he's not using Pinky's voice from Pinky and the Brain.
This makes me feel better, I forgot how much the old cartoon screwed up. XD:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=
(I'm not gonna lie, Paulsen make me absolutely adore Raphael when I was ten, and I loved Mighty Max for the same reason, and Rev from Loonatics Unleashed, who all use variants of this voice, so I'm sure I'll get used to Donatello sounding the same very quickly.)
And as Raphael in the 1980s:
I mean COME ON, if you're gonna voice the same cartoon but a different character, at least change the voice a bit more. But I guess I should just be happy he's not using Pinky's voice from Pinky and the Brain.
This makes me feel better, I forgot how much the old cartoon screwed up. XD:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=
(I'm not gonna lie, Paulsen make me absolutely adore Raphael when I was ten, and I loved Mighty Max for the same reason, and Rev from Loonatics Unleashed, who all use variants of this voice, so I'm sure I'll get used to Donatello sounding the same very quickly.)
My most valuable possessions
Having lost some of my stuff to mold, I was able to tell what of my stuff I value the most because they ended up being the stuff I worry about most. Outside of my old drawings from high school that are really not replaceable (and my USB jumpdrive with all my writing ever on it), the two "items" or collections I worry about the most are: *drumroll pls*
My TMNT comic book collection.
aaaand
My Monica Hughes books.
These two items take up maybe 4 boxes. It's like, less than 10% of all the stuff I own. They also are among my oldest things, gathered over a 15-20 year span for both.
So basically if I keep at myself doggedly and remind myself that those are the two things I don't want to part with ever, at least not at this moment in my life, I should be able to dump the rest like hot potatoes, right?
*crickets chirp* Well, it's an idea anyway.
My TMNT comic book collection.
aaaand
My Monica Hughes books.
These two items take up maybe 4 boxes. It's like, less than 10% of all the stuff I own. They also are among my oldest things, gathered over a 15-20 year span for both.
So basically if I keep at myself doggedly and remind myself that those are the two things I don't want to part with ever, at least not at this moment in my life, I should be able to dump the rest like hot potatoes, right?
*crickets chirp* Well, it's an idea anyway.