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[spacefille]

Two days in back to work and I'm already faltering. The feeling of being trapped is returning, threatening to overwhelm.

I'm at a cross roads... I either deal with it somehow or I cease to exist. But I can't remain in limbo.

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[bunnynumber13.livejournal.com]

I know exactly how you feel. In my case, I'm not just saying it. I've been there. *hugs* Hang in there hon.

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

thanks, you too *hugs back* And you'd better hang in there as well ^^

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

*hugggs*

What are you working towards? Did you ever figure that out, love?

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

Um... surviving?

I've been reading old opendiary journal entries from 9 years ago but chibi-me had no insights either... beyond a mention of getting married at around age 25 and popping out babies lol

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

Wow, open diary still exists? Or did you download it before the site went kaput?

I think if you're only focus is surviving it's not going to get you through... surviving is a monotony and in the end meaningless if that's all there is to it...
There has to be some kind of dream left, right? Even if it's just a little one?

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

No. Just no. I had once upon a time... now I don't know. I don't especially enjoy doing anything for long periods of time. I learn something and then when I know everything I get bored. I stayed at the Source by Circuit City for so long cause I loved my boss and my customers. What I need is a job where I can help people. I told my psych that and she sent me back to work. Here.

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

Aww, I wish you could come here and work with me, I think you'd love working for Enmax. <3

Regardless, that sounds like a goal to me. Now you just need to decide how - will something as simple as retail do it, or do you want to go all the way and do something like social services? And what about volunteering?

ETA: Honestly, when I ended things with the first girlfriend, my only goal was to work somewhere that would let me make enough money to go to Japan. Dreams don't have to be big or even long term. Just -something-, right?

[head-voices-xd.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[aussiegirl17.livejournal.com]

I've been there and am not so far from it that I've forgotten the feelings. I wish the best for you and send as much strength through the 'webs as I can. *huggles*

Edit: Because I forgot a word. >_

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

thank you *hugs you back* I appreciate it very much

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

lol still can't burn down my office building XD Jail does not help life much either~!

[saereneth.livejournal.com]

You just keep going, through the next day and the next... You will wake up to a better day. It might not be tomorrow, and it won't be perfect, but it will be better. And then maybe the day after that will be even better. I've found, if you focus on the hope of tomorrow being better than today, I sometimes forget that today sucks.

In the meantime, remember that you have people who care about you, and let all the hugs and well-wishes carry you to tomorrow when you feel like you can't hope for the better day. *hugs*

[spacefille.livejournal.com]

Thanks Kes *hugs you* I miss talking to you, we should catch up on aim sometime :)

[lady-ganesh.livejournal.com]

::hugs::